Nostalgia Reads: I Re-Read Jeremy Fink and The Meaning of Life

I’ve decided to continue to my nostalgia reads series with Jeremy Fink and The Meaning of Life by Wendy Mass. This was actually on a different summer reading list than the one I was supposed to be following in middle school, but I read it anyway. Trying to remember this book as an adult was like trying to remember a fever dream. I know I read it, but I wasn’t able to tell you any specific details.

Jeremy Fink and The Meaning Life is about a 12 year old boy living in New York City named Jeremy. A few weeks before his 13th birthday he receives a mysterious box from his late father that is supposed to contain the “meaning of life.” The only problem is he can’t open the box because he doesn’t have the keys. That prompts him and his best friend Lizzy to set out on a quest to find the keys.

I picked up this book because I recently had a pretty bad existential crisis. (Just the usual questions to keep me up at night: Why am I here? What is my purpose? etc.) For a book from a middle school perspective, it dealt with some heavy topics such as death, religion, and the aforementioned existential crisis. I thought it handled them in a way that was honest but still appropriate for that age group.

I really could see this book being a movie because of its cast of fun characters. Jeremy’s best friend Lizzy is so feisty and fearless. His mom is super sweet and I like that she steps up to be a mother figure for Lizzy. Mr. Oswald, a character Jeremy and Lizzy meet after a series of unfortunate events, gives some insightful advice.

Jeremy is a well-written character too. He is rather precocious at times, but Mass does enough to convince you that he is 12 years old. I think there is a lot kids and adults alike can learn from his character development. He is a picky eater and likes to stay in his comfort zone. However, as the story progresses, he learns it is okay to try new things and that going outside of your comfort zone will help you in the long run.

My only critique would be the pacing. I don’t know why but I found the story a bit slow at times. There were chapters where I did not have trouble putting it down. But then I would get to a part that was a little more interesting and keep reading longer. This is not a thriller or page turner. This is an emotional, introspective journey. So if you are looking for something a little sentimental and thought provoking to read, then I would recommend this book.

Nostalgia Reads: I Re-Read The Tale of Despereaux

I want to start a new series where I read books from my childhood and see how I feel about them now. This first installment will focus on The Tale of Despereaux by Kate DiCamillo, a book I read in middle school. I don’t remember much about it except I really liked that there were pictures in it.

If you didn’t read this for your middle school summer reading, here is a rundown of the plot. The story takes place in medieval times and all of the main characters live in one castle. The main characters are Despereaux, a mouse; Roscuro, a rat; and Miggery Sow, a servant. The novel is written in second and third person, but each section follows a different character until the last section which weaves all of their stories together.

The story starts with Despereaux, who is disowned by his family for not following the mouse rules of the castle. He interacts with humans, the king and Princess Pea, which is a big no-no in the mouse community. The mouse council orders him to the dungeon to be eaten by rats, which is pretty dark if you think about it.

But soon we are introduced to Roscuro, who wants nothing more than to be in the light of the castle instead of the darkness of the dungeon. We learn that desire led him to make a choice that had some pretty deadly consequences. Now he wants to carry out a revenge plot against Princess Pea, which he tries to do by enlisting the help of servant Miggery Sow.

I really feel sorry for Miggery Sow. Her mother dies. Her father sells her into servitude for “cigarettes, a red tablecloth, and a hen.” The man who buys her gives her “clouts to the ear.” This whole time I did not really know what that meant, but according to Meriam Webster it is hitting someone with a hand. That means this man hit her in the ear so much until she lost some of her hearing.

DiCamillo also describes her as not the sharpest tool in the shed, which is probably why it was so easy for Roscuro to get her to go with his plan. But don’t worry. Despereaux sets out to save Princess Pea from Roscuro’s revenge.  

If you got lost in my plot summary, that’s okay. This book does not have a linear plot—something I actually like. The constant jumping back and forth in time through different characters’ points of view kept the story interesting. It all came together at the end in a really satisfying way. Now I definitely see why this book was required reading. There are interesting plot and character devices that you can discuss in the classroom or even just for a book club. Overall, I’m really glad I re-read this one.  

Why I Stopped Book Blogging

I totally fell off the wagon when it comes to keeping up with this blog. I felt like every time I finished a book I needed to write a book report. It felt like homework. It sucked the joy out of reading a bit. But at the same time, I have had so many thoughts about the recent books that I’ve read. Take Malibu Rising for example. That was my first Taylor Jenkins Reid read. It surprised me. I wasn’t sure if I was going to like it. I know her books have received so many rave reviews. I was worried it wouldn’t live up to the hype. But I loved it.

Then I also have thoughts on books that I didn’t really like. Sadly, the latest Sally Rooney, Beautiful World, Where Are You? I thought it was dull in some spots. I couldn’t connect with the characters like I did in Conversations with Friends or Normal People. Then there’s the book I just finished, Reputation by Sara Shepard. I thought because I read some of the Pretty Little Liars series and The Lying Game I would like this one. I felt like I couldn’t get behind any of the characters and sometimes the pacing was a little slow. Usually, I like alternating perspectives, but this tactic could get confusing in this book. I would get lost on how some characters would learn certain information.

You could call what I just wrote mini reviews, but I’m wondering if this is the right platform me? Should I start a separate Instagram account for book reviews? Would that feel less like a school assignment? I also don’t read as fast as I used to in high school. It takes me the full two weeks to read a library book, especially if I’m not really into it. This means my post uploads could get inconsistent.

What I’m trying to say is I want to revive this blog. But I don’t know what the next steps are. I do have other interests outside of reading. I think books were a safe topic for me. It was super easy to find source material and I already read regularly. I know I need to do so more out of the box thinking. This year I want to try new things with this blog and how I make content.

Infinite Do-overs and Father Daughter Feuds

Is it me or did February fly right by? But I did not fly through my reading. I took my time and only read two books, just like January. The first one is The Midnight Library by Matt Haig, which I picked up because I heard it mentioned on a few podcasts and I wanted to see what all of the buzz was about. I would not call this book life-changing, but it was different and it made me think.

The plot is very interesting. It’s about a woman named Nora, who hates her life. That’s not an exaggeration.  She feels like she hasn’t reached her potential and does not think her life is worth living. These feelings lead her to attempt suicide. Instead of dying she ends up in the Midnight Library, which is a sort of limbo. All of the books are different versions of her life based on different choices she could have made. When she picks up the book, she can try out that life.

The story just shows how even minor choices can impact your life in major ways. I found myself reflecting on my own choices that have brought me to the current point in my life. If I decided to do one thing differently (like chose a different college or major), how would my life have turned out? Would I still be in the same place?

That brings me to the major topic in this book: regrets. Nora has a lot of regrets. There’s even a book in the Midnight Library called The Book of Regrets. It’s pretty heavy. As Nora tries out these different lives, her regrets start to disappear. She realizes no matter how cliché it sounds, everything in her life has happened for a reason. That’s something I expected to happen, but it was nice to watch everything unfold. Through this novel I got to see that we don’t need to have all of these regrets and that every day is a chance to start fresh.

The second book I read in February was The Party Upstairs by Lee Conell. This novel is about a father and daughter, Martin and Ruby, with a tense relationship. Martin is the super for an apartment building in New York City. Ruby is a few years post grad and has moved back in with her parents. She is unemployed and in debt. Martin is extremely disappointed by this and views her as a failure.

The whole story takes place in one day with some flashbacks to flesh it out. It is told from both Martin and Ruby’s viewpoints in alternating chapters. The pace was definitely a slow-burn, but I stayed interested because I wanted to know the breaking point at the end of the story. There was an actual party upstairs and it was a key event in the story.

I don’t think I liked any of the characters, especially Martin. I didn’t necessarily enjoy reading his condescending thoughts toward his daughter. It just felt like he rolled his eyes at every little thing she said and did. There were times where I questioned does he even like her?

Then you have Ruby’s friend, Caroline, the host of the party upstairs. She is staying in her father’s penthouse. She comes from a wealthy family, which is something Ruby is very jealous of. Sometimes you could see how out of touch Caroline was with Ruby’s situation (like helping her get a job interview for an unpaid internship). I just found Caroline a little snobby, even though she wasn’t always aware of it.

Social class is the major theme of the story. It affects Ruby’s relationship with Caroline and her father. But the building and its operations are structured by social class too. All of the wealthy tenants in the building live above Ruby and Martin, because they live in the basement. The story just really made me think about income inequality and how many opportunities in life are tied to money even if we try to ignore it.

Lost Sisters and Best Friends Until The End

I know February is almost over, but let’s talk about January because that’s when I finally made it to two books that have been on my TBR list for a while. The Vanishing Half by Brit Bennett was probably the most hyped book of 2020. I read Bennett’s first novel, The Mothers, a few years ago and loved it. So I thought this one was worth a try.

The Vanishing Half is about twin sisters, Desiree and Stella, who run away from their small town in Louisiana in 1950’s. They both have very light skin (pretty much like everyone else in their small town), so Stella uses that to her advantage to pass for white to get a job. But she actually continues to live as a white woman and becomes estranged from her family.  Desiree marries a man with much darker skin which their child inherits. She and her daughter end up back in the small town, where her daughter is made to feel like an outsider.

The story follows the lives of the twins and their own daughters throughout the years and when the daughters eventually meet each other. Obviously, this story touches on colorism in a very literal way. But I think reinvention is also the main theme of the story as well. Even though the characters have grown into adults, everyone is still trying to find themselves.

I can’t say if I like this story better than The Mothers, because I feel like these novels are very different from each other. It took a little bit of time for me to really get into it, but the characters were extremely interesting. I loved the chapters that followed Desiree’s daughter, Jude, and the ones that focused on Stella.

Now to the other book I read in January: In Five Years by Rebecca Serle. This was the first book I read by Serle. I will say it ended up going in a very different direction than I expected. In Five Years is about Dannie Kohan, who is type-A and seems like she has her life together. In fact, she actually has a five year plan.

The story starts when Dannie is 28. She is a lawyer who is extremely dedicated to her career. She lives with her boyfriend in New York City. In the first few chapters, she has a pretty good day. She crushes her job interview, has a nice dinner with her boyfriend who proposes and she goes home and falls asleep. She wakes up five years in the future next to someone who is not her fiancé. She spends the present day and the years leading up to that moment trying to avoid it.

I think the description on the book jacket made it sound more like a fantasy than it actually is. I thought there would be magic or time travel in the story. But I think the fact of Danny waking up to her life in five years was actually just a really intuitive dream (sorry for the mild-ish spoiler).

Everything plays out at an even pace. I wouldn’t say this was a page turner necessarily. I could definitely understand some people finding it to be a bit slow or dull in some parts like where she goes into detail about what it’s really like to be a lawyer. But I was curious to see where the story would go and I found the lawyer parts kind of interesting, because I like hearing about other people’s jobs.

A key character in this story is Dannie’s best friend Bella, who is basically her polar opposite. She lives this spontaneous and care-free life. Something happens to Bella that tests Dannie’s friendship with her and brings out a different side of Dannie. I’m not going to say what it is, but it’s definitely a curveball for Dannie. Overall, I don’t think there’s much to complain about with my January reads. I gained some new perspectives and I hope you will too if you take time to read these novels.

Dashing Through New York With a Book Full of Dares

I am a sucker for a cutesy YA romance. So that’s why I picked up Rachel Cohn & David Levithan’s Dash and Lily’s Book of Dares.  After reading the back cover, I was sold. It’s about two teens, Dash and Lily, who trade a book full of dares back and forth in New York City. But I wouldn’t really call them dares, more like instructions in a scavenger hunt because it sends them to different places to do different things.

I think the plot is super-fun and unrealistic in the best way possible. Both of Dash and Lily’s parents have conveniently left them for the holidays. Lily’s parents went on vacation for their anniversary. Although it seems weird for them to celebrate without everyone because they are portrayed as such a tight-knit family. Dash told his divorced parents that he was spending the holidays with the other one. Apparently they haven’t spoken to each other in several years. I think that’s odd they wouldn’t at least call the other parent to see how their child is doing. But I digress.

The story is told in alternating perspectives between Dash and Lily, which I really like. Dash is your typical moody teenage boy character. So moody to the point, some other characters describe as “Snarly” to Lily. Lily thinks of herself as a good girl. She plays soccer, gets good grades, and normally stays out trouble. Of course, that is until we get deeper in the story and she starts to break the rules a little bit.

I actually enjoyed both Dash and Lily as characters. I think their personalities complemented each other really well. I think this book had some interesting side characters too. Dash’s best friend, Boomer, is the epitome of quirky. Lily is also very close with her extended family and most of them live in New York. So as the story unfolds, many of them play key roles in the dares in the book passed between her and Dash.

One of the best and most important parts of this book is the setting. New York during Christmas time is supposed to be magical. At least that’s what all of the Christmas movies tell me. I definitely felt Christmas movie vibes when reading this book. Netflix must have felt them too, because the book has been developed into a series, which I started watching but haven’t finished yet.

If you want to get yourself in the Christmas spirit, give this book a chance. We all need some a little holiday joy after the year we’ve had.

What Goes on Behind Closed Doors…

Every now and then I like to immerse myself in a good thriller. Sometimes I’m just in the mood a book that’s a little bit scary. I especially like domestic thrillers. You know the ones that can give off Lifetime movie vibes. Sometimes they’re about married couples or family life. Think The Girl on The Train or Gone Girl. That’s the type of story I was expecting with Behind Closed Doors by B.A. Paris. But it was quite different from what I expected it to be. I didn’t hate it, but it didn’t live up to how much hype I gave it in my mind.

Behind Closed Doors is about seemingly perfect newlyweds, Jack and Grace.  Jack is a high-powered attorney and Grace is a homemaker.  From the outside they seem to be in love and really close to each other. But the big secret is that Grace is literally trapped in her marriage. While they were dating, Jack was the perfect gentleman. However, after they said their I-do’s, he turned on her and showed his true colors. He revealed himself as a sadistic, twisted man looking for someone to keep hostage and torture.

I know Jack is supposed to be the villain in this story. But there was something about him that felt cartoonish to me. I know there are evil people in this world, but I was struggling to believe that there would be a person that would be so open about seeing others in pain and that he was so open about his plans with Grace.

I also thought it was weird that no one noticed anything was wrong with them as a couple. I mean Grace never left her house without Jack and she didn’t even have a cellphone. I find this aspect particularly strange considering this book takes place in modern times. And most people (who don’t have something against technology) have cell phones.  Only one of their friends is suspicious.

But there is one part of the book that I think picked up the pace and raised the stakes. That is Grace’s teenage sister, Millie. Millie has Down’s syndrome and is away at boarding school for most of the book. She is supposed to come live with Grace and Jack later on, but obviously Grace doesn’t want that. So it becomes even more important for her to escape.

(*Hold your horses! I get super spoilery in this next paragraph!*)

Grace has tried to escape Jack several times, and I was curious about how she would actually pull it off.  It feels deceptively simple and I’m still surprised that it worked. For the most part, this book kept my attention. I wouldn’t say it kept me up all night reading, but there was enough happening that I wanted to know what happens next. This story is perfect for readers who enjoy thrillers about married couples and don’t mind a slow burn.

A Book Where All of My Literary Wishes Come True

I’ve always wondered what it would be like to be a twin. What is it like to have someone else walking this earth that looks just like you? But to take it one step further, what is it like to live your life with two other people that look just like you? It’s hard for me to imagine life as a triplet, but that’s exactly the focus of Liane Moriarty’s debut novel, Three Wishes, about a set of 33-year-old triplets in Australia. Now that I’ve finished this one, I’ve officially read all of Moriarty’s adult novels. I can say that it has all of the qualities of her novels that I really enjoy.

I think Moriarty is excellent at writing characters. I like the way they talk and think. She usually writes in third person, so you get to hear the inner dialogue of whatever character the chapter focuses on. I think this is especially helpful in telling the triplets: Cat, Lynn, and Gemma Kettle apart.

Specifically, I really like that she gave each triplet a distinct personality that clashes yet still vibes with the other sisters.  Cat is short-tempered and assertive and she is struggling with her marriage, while Lynn is type-A to a fault and is juggling a family and business. Gemma takes a more relaxed approach to life, but she struggles with committing to relationships.

Moriarty also has a creative narrative style. Not only does she use third person, but she also includes these accounts from strangers peppered throughout the novel, where they speak about their chance encounters with the Kettle sisters. In the main chapters, you only hear how the sisters perceive themselves and each other. The strangers’ accounts give you a whole new perspective on the sisters.

Like a lot of Moriarty’s novels, this one revolves around a dramatic event that we’re introduced to in the beginning and then the rest of the novel builds up to it. The novel starts with a major fight between the sisters that ends with one of them throwing a fork at the pregnant sister. It lands in her belly (, but the baby is okay if you were worried).  When I first read about it, it sounded very cartoonish, but it makes more sense toward the end of the novel.

I think Three Wishes plays to one of Moriarty’s greatest strengths, which is tackling darker themes like infidelity, toxic relationships, pregnancy loss, and mental health  while still being able to balance it out with lighter moments. If you want to read this rollercoaster of a novel, I say do it. You only live once. And you might as well get to know what it’s like to do so in a trio.

Sinking My Teeth into Vampires in the Lemon Grove

Karen Russell’s Vampires in the Lemon Grove and Other Stories was a bit of a gamble for me. I don’t normally pick up short stories. But the title caught my attention and I liked that the stories had fantasy elements in them. So I decided to give it a try.

 Let’s start with my personal favorite, Reeling of the Empire. It’s about these young women who work at a silk factory in Japan in what I assume is the early 1900s or sometime during the Industrial Age. But there is a twist that makes this story crazy interesting and gives it potential to be expanded into a novel. The women are transforming into mutant human-silkworms! The factory leader gave them tea with a silkworm in it that started their transformation.  

I really liked the vivid descriptions of the women’s appearances after their transformations and what happened when they made silk. Even though some of those descriptions were a little too vivid (I could feel my stomach turning as I read them). I think the Japanese culture was well-researched and made the story feel real even thought it was about women turning into silk-worms. I thought the rebellion plot picked up the pace of the story and subtly added suspense.

Another story I need to point out is The Graveless Doll of Eric Mutis.  It follows four teenage boys who find a scarecrow in the middle of the woods that looks eerily like their missing classmate they used to bully.  I will admit I found this story really unsettling.

Every time they go see the scarecrow, it is missing a body part. At first, I felt like it was a prank, but then the boys started to get more and more freaked out. I got a little freaked out, because I wanted to know what happened to this kid and how he disappeared, but Russell never gives those answers. However I do appreciate the change in one of the boys as the story progresses. I like that he starts to worry more about what happened to his classmate and to think a little harder about how he treated him. So I see the scarecrow as a lesson on bullying—a very creepy one albeit.

Now let’s finally talk about Vampires in the Lemon Grove, the title and opening story in this collection that gives you a brief look into the life of a vampire couple. I’ve read a lot about vampires in novels and have seen them in movies and television. I understand every writer likes to have their own spin on the genre. In this story, the vampire couple did not drink blood (well at least at the beginning….) and sank their fangs into other objects with lemons being the current one of choice. That was interesting to me, because in most of the vampire stories I’ve encountered, they all had to drink blood at some point. This wasn’t the best story in the collection, but it definitely set the tone for the rest of it.

My least favorite was probably The New Veterans or Dougbert Shackleton’s Rules for Antarctic Tailgating. The New Veterans is about a massage therapist who becomes obsessed with one of her patient’s tattoos and somehow rubs away his traumatic memories from the army. This is an interesting idea, I just found the story really long and I wasn’t very invested in it.

Rules for Antarctic Tailgating was a creative idea, but it didn’t interest me as much as the others. It’s exactly what it sounds like. It lays out the rules for tailgating in the Antarctic. These are for tailgating at the Food Chain Games for Team Whale and Team Krill, even though the rules are specifically for Team Krill. I’m pretty sure Russell is referring to the actual animals for the teams. I just didn’t like this story as much as the others, and I found myself speeding through it trying to get to the next one. I think it was the sportiness of the whole story. I don’t enjoy sports and have never been tailgating. So I don’t think this story was for me.

Overall, Vampires in the Lemon Grove and Other Stories was a very different read. I would deem this collection literary fiction, because I can definitely see English students breaking down these stories in a literature class. I don’t think every story was my taste, but I’m glad I read the book. Now I’m curious enough to check out some of Russell’s other work.